Two requests in one day for me to update my blog here so here I am typing away. Let's see what should I talk about... I quit smoking three years ago in November. Damn could I use a smoke tonight! No I

   Wow what a shitty mood I am in today. I don't even know why I am blogging... I wonder who even reads this anymore? I am still getting a bunch of hits every day, it shows you that. I wonder why you'

I cant seem to blog lately. Everything I type just comes out so melodramatic and that's really not how I am feeling. I don't know what to say. I am so confused about everything. I am just trying not

"It's ok, you can't help it. It's who you are." He said to me. It's one of the last things he said to me until today. It makes me just sit here and stare at my screen thinking about it. I am so crazy

So the luckiest day of the decade, yesterday, wasn't so lucky for me. At least not on the surface. Maybe sometime later we'll end up with some sort of lucky result because of yesterday but I can't se